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Thanks to Carmen for this award!!

Please check out another great lady from Connecticut fighting the good fight!

http://mywittyblogtitle.blogspot.com/

The rules:

1. Thank the person that nominated you for this award

2. Copy the award and post it in your blog

3. Link to the blog of the person who nominated you

4. Tell seven interesting things about yourself

5. Nominate seven other bloggers

6. Post links to the blogs of your nominees

Okay .. so seven things about me .. little ol'me.. could I possibly come up with a list of seven things?! Well.. let's give this a shot..

1. I don't drink coffee and never have!! My idea of a good wake me up ..is a cold glass of chocolate milk.. or hot chocolate on a cold day..

2. I miss Dawsons Creek and I'm sad that they don't even play the re-runs on tbs anymore! :(

ps- I would have totally picked Pacey too.. and if you don't know this reference ..just move to #3

3. I'm a Hallmark snob. I check for the crown when I get a card.. I'm sorry!! ..but it's true..

4. I'm always listening to Pandora Radio on my computer.. I love: Counting Crows, Pearl Jam, Tori Amos, Ray LaMontagne, John Mayer, Radiohead, David Grey, Damien Rice, Ryan Adams, Tool, Deftones, The Grateful Dead, ..and I'm lovin Camera Obscura .. + the occasional gangsta rap song or country song thrown in for good luck!

5. I love reading my horoscope and believe in physics .. I'm a Capricorn and my hubby is a Leo and my son is a Taurus..

6. I love a fresh pack of crayons.. oh the possibilities..

7. (same as carmens!) I want to have Pin-up-type pics taken of me once I reach goal and start to love what I look like on the outside..

Okay ..now for my nominations.. in no real order..

1. Amy: http://cheeseandsunkist.blogspot.com/

She was one of the first blogs I started reading when I was considering having this WLS ..and with her humor and her ability to share the ups and downs.. I knew then .. that I would have the strength to do the same. Thanks so much Amy for all that you share with us .. and I hope you know how many people you've helped! Go Amy/Oprah!!

2. Gen: http://ihearttheband.blogspot.com/

How can you not love her before/after pics! Her dedication to exercising and her cute choices in bathing suits! Another person that writes from the heart..

3. http://dinnerland.blogspot.com/ oh her being real is great for someone that's a few steps behind and wants to know what it's going to be like after surgery! the ups and downs!!

4. http://catchytitlehere-elise.blogspot.com/ Oh yeah! We rock the same name (just spelled a pinch different) and we're both from the great state of Connecticut!! So yay us!!

5. http://redmokr.blogspot.com/ Again with the same name thing!! Kristen's of the world!! We must band <---- ha ha ha together and win this chubby war!! And she is .. she's rockin it! I'm a new reader but I love reading your blog!!

6. http://janellody.blogspot.com/ One of my first 'followers' and she's getting so close that I check her blog almost everyday to see how she's doing!! Can't wait to hear all about the 'after'!!

7. http://chroniclesfrombandland.blogspot.com/ Another one of the blogs I started out reading after Amy's and Gen's .. and she's a foodie! Loves good/quality food.. I love reading about her underground food clubs experiences and wish I could live that cool of a life in NYC!

I have almost 30ish blogs that I'm keeping up with right now and I love to 'get to know' all of us in our great bloggy community! And a big thank you to the handful of followers I have.. it's great to know I'm not alone in this!!

Thanks!!

Thoughts on food..

I mean ..what else could I possibly think about! .. Well that statement isn't 100% true but food is on my mind a lot.

I really wanted to loose the 20+ lbs and be an even 200 for surgery ..but that isn't looking like it's going to happen right now. I'm not beating myself up about it ..but I do recognize that I'm having a hard time getting out of the 'this is my last real good meal' mentality..

I weighed in at 223 today at my physical ..It's so hard to see that number and think that I've had all these months and I didn't do anything about it. I didn't gain weight ..so maybe that's a small victory? A victory that I haven't gained weight since Oct.. I guess that's not so bad when I think of it that way.

I almost want the band to use it as an excuse to why I can't eat that much anymore.. does that make sense to anyone? I feel like everyone knows that I never say no to going out to grab a bite to eat and I'm not the first one to order up a small salad either. Or feeling like I have to finish something/take enough on my plate at dinner or my husband will ask if I'm feeling okay or do I like what he made.. I just want to use the band in those ways.. even if it's just in the beginning.

I feel like I've been so calm/cool about all this up until this point .. and now I just want to wrap everything up and get a date so that I can move forward.

I'm going to order a 'Try Me' pack from Inspire and try a few flavors of their protein shakes.. I want to make sure I like my meals that I'll be enjoying for 10 days before surgery! :)

and those are my Wednesday afternoon thoughts on food!

Ten on Tuesday!

I'm avoiding all things that have to do with house work today!! The dishes in the sink.. the two piles of clothes in my bedroom..the wash that needs to be switched over to the dryer..

So let's do 10 on Tuesday instead! Here's a list of 10 random things ..you guessed it! On Tuesday!

1. I love Etsy! Have you been there yet? I shop there I think once a month..etsy.com check it out if you never have..I got my little dude this vintage moon poster on there and he's loving it! He was pointing out where he would land his rocket..

2. The two dudes that have my heart..working on valentines cards for little dude's class..

3. I made and then ate way to many sugar cookies last week.. this being stuck inside and not going out to play is really wrecking my plans on losing 10ish lbs before my surgery..

4. I can't stop looking at Old Navy and The Gap ..and thinking of the clothes I will buy..And I'm not even a shopper!?

5. I'm excited that at my next hair appointment I'll be a few weeks past Surgery and my hairdresser has been a great cheerleader for me! I can't wait to show her some progress!!

6. Excited for the one week vacation we just booked to Maine.. a cute cabin, our own little beach and my sister is coming to play 'nanny' with my little dude sometimes when we want to go out on our own.

7. Wondering what to stock up on before surgery ..I've been looking around bariatriceating.com today for some good ideas..

8. I've started to plan little dude's 4th birthday party.. this is the first year that we're having a 'friends' party and inviting his buddies from his preschool class! We're going to have it at a local children's museum and I'm ordering cute invites this week.

9. My cousin and her two kids are up visiting and I wish they lived closer.. my little guy and her cutie girl are only three months apart and it's sweet to see them playing together..

10. I'm excited for the new 'Teen Mom' on MTV tonight.. I'm a junk tv junkie!!

A small bump in the road..

was successfully avoided today! ..

last week we had a tiny little snow storm (it was supposed to be HUGE!) and I had to cancel my nutrition appointment and rescheduled it for this Wednesday. Great. Fine. No prob!

then at some point in the day .. I was standing at the sink and turned around slowly to read my calendar on my fridge and saw that I had .. double booked myself! WAAA WAAA!!!

I have my physical for surgery on Wednesday too!! So I called up my nutritionist and tried to make another appointment in feb and she said there was no way.. she was all booked up for the rest of the month.

Called my doctor to see if I could get another physical date ..and she said that the doctor was taking appointments for the middle of May! ...MAY!? AHHH!! That's wayyyy to late..

Moral of the story! There was a cancellation at the nutritionist office for Friday A.M and I'm soo very very happy!! I didn't care what time/what day.. as long as I could squeeze it in Feb! WHOOO!!

Now that i'm getting so close to the end of all this work,.. I didn't want to push it back by another month because of a little problem like that..

2nd Support Group

I just got back from my 2nd Support Group meeting (have to attend two as a requirement) and it was really good.

It was alot about Heart health (so clever since it's almost valentines day) but the part that I always like is at the very end someone comes up to the podium and tells their story.

I wonder how my journey will play out and if 1.) I'll have an interesting enough story to tell and 2.) If I'd be brave enough to get up there in front of everyone..

The other thing I've been thinking about ..and it might be really silly ..almost as silly as my undies post..I'm excited for events that happen all the time ..but with a slightly different body..

Let's say I have my surgery on May 1st..

- 2/3 months out: will I loose some weight this summer and feel like I can wear a tank top here and there.. or maybe even shorts?!

-5 months out: we always go to this big party on columbus day weekend ..where my mom and step dad camp and I wonder what I'll feel like by then.. will I want to get all dressed up and show off my results to people that haven't seen me in a while..

-7.5 months out: my annual family christmas party .. seeing people that I only see once a year..maybe some that haven't seen me since before surgery or just right after surgery..

-at some point next year my sister in law is going to get married..and this is the first wedding in a long time .. that i'll actually be excited to pick out a dress to wear..

..so many things to day dream about ..to pass the time in this waiting area..

I want colorful undies!!

Does anyone remember a few weeks back on Facebook when they were doing the 'what color is your bra' for breast cancer awareness. I shouted out that I had on my trusty light tan bra..Ooh go me! And my crazy fun undergarments... not..

Oh how I wish to fit my tush into little Vicky undies!

I would love to just walk in and pick up a bunch and throw out all my granny pants! (well..maybe keep a few for the fun time of the month) and walk in and buy a pretty little'ish bra.. Right now my bra's are either white or that really exciting tan color.

Wooo!

I want color and polka dots and lace and pretty little bows..is it silly to day-dream about these kinds of things?? I haven't bought a pretty bra since my high school days .. when I was sporting a 'C' cup size. And even though I know they make pretty bra's in big girl sizes.. it's just not the same.

So add that to another NSV!! to my ever growing list of wishes!

Oh what a week!

Sorry for the lack of posts/being MIA!! It's been one of those weeks ..my little dude just was getting over having a double ear infection ..then got hit with a stomach virus (just imagine lots and lots of laundry) .. I'm just hoping that he didn't share those lovely germ with his awesome parents ;)

I had an appointment with my surgeon yesterday and we just went over some results of appointments that I've been too (cardiologist, upper GI test, psych, ectect) and I learned that I have a "hiatal hernia" ..a small one, but it's still there. The good news is that when he goes in for the lap-band ..he'll also fix the hernia and my reflux/heartburn will disappear! Yay!!

And everything else looks great! I have my 5th nutritionist appointment next week and then my 6th one is scheduled for March 11th ..and after March 11th.. my paperwork goes to the insurance company!! Woooooohooooo!! I can see the light! He said that after March 11th ..to expect a two week wait and then when we get the thumbs up ..we can make a pre-op appointment and pick a date for the big day!! So I'm looking at an end of April or very early May for my surgery. I just want to get past the waiting on insurance and get a date.. and some of the anxiety over doing all of this might subside..

I haven't done so great as far as doing WW .. :( boo on me .. but I guess I'm still in a 'last dinner' mentality and even though I don't over do it and haven't gained any weight, ..I'm not seeing numbers drop either. But I'm not feeling that down on myself.. help is right around the corner!!

I just started seeing a therapist and I'm excited to have some extra support as I get ready for surgery and the 'after' too.. He has lots of experience with lap-band patients ..so that's encouraging. I'll post more as we dig deeper into some of my weight issues.. and all that fun mental stuff!

Okay, I'm off to catch up on all the blogs .. I've missed reading everyone this week and can't wait to see how everyone is doing!

Happy Friday!