So we left off with me on the couch..

and that's where I stayed for most of the day ..

I would get up to do laps around the house and to take pain meds.. but other than that I just napped and watched some of my shows on tv. while my hubby painted the downstairs bathroom..

my husband left around 4:30 to pick up our boy at school and went to his mom's house for dinner.. he came back and made me some chicken broth and that was super yummy again..

last night i went upstairs about 9:30 and slept till 3:30 ..and had to come downstairs for some more pain meds and to go potty.. TMI ---> i have so much GAS!! it shoots out like a rocket from my booty.. it's crazy amounts..but feels really good to get that out of my tummy. i was hoping and praying that my dudes upstairs didn't hear me so early in the a.m ..

today i've already taken a shower (which was great!) and tried to make/eat some cream of wheat ..but it was to thick and kind of hurt sitting in there (pain was in my back) ..so I dumped that out and i'm going to try a carnation instant breakfast in a bit .. i think i'm getting hungry..and need more in me that just broth and vitamin water! :0)

thanks for the warm welcome in to the world of the banded ..

i'm not sure anyone else has this name ..but i'm naming my band: Leenah

as in Leenah and Meenah and eatin Greenah .. or something like that ..can you tell i'm loopy on meds?!

off to read some other peeps blogs ..happy friday everyone!

to the other side..

I made it bloggy peeps!! Thanks for all your support yesterday .. it means so much to me that I have a kick butt group of you guys there for kind words and encouragement.

So here's my story..

Yesterday morning we did some errands and I picked up the loratab ..walked around Toy's R Us to buy our little dude a swingset for his birthday. We stopped back at home real quick and then headed out to the hospital.

I knew I was getting nervous because of how silent I was in the car.. my husband was trying so hard to keep the mood light and make me laugh..

I checked in and changed into my b-e-autiful gown.. it was an XL and purple so I looked like a purple oompaloopa .. it was great fun! :0)

I got my vitals checked and then my IV put in and a shot of heparin (ouchie!) .. and then we waited.. and waited.. surgery was supposed to be at 1:30 ..but I didn't get down to the Pre-Op area until 2:30pm ..that's where I met up with the surgical team and my anesthesia dude..

3pm came and that's when I smooched my hubby good bye and they wheeled me into the OR..

That's when I was getting even more nervous.. I asked if it was almost time for that 'happy juice' ..and that did that for me..and that was the last thing I remember..

The next thing I was waking up in recovery.. I was sore and wanted to wake up and talk ..but my mouth/throat felt stuffed with cotton .. the nurse hooked me up with some more pain meds and I was able to suck on a sponge-on-a-stick.. it was just enough to wet my mouth and get my voice back.

I made it up to my room around 6:30pm ..my hubby stayed a little bit ..and then I sent him home so he could pick up our dude from our inlaws house. He set up my bedside table with my chapstick/brush/magazines.. and made sure I was all set before he left.. I didn't even want to read them or watch tv.. I just kinda spaced out and looked out the window and tried to close my eyes..

I got up and walked around about 8:30 and then tried to get some pee out ..and I couldn't .. so I walked around some more and tried again .. it's almost 9:30 by this point and I haven't pee'd since 11:30am .. and you know what that means..catheter time! :( boooo!!! I had one of these when I had my son ..and they are the opposite of fun. The going in part isn't terrible..it's just the constant feeling of having to pee..even though your bladder is empty ..drives me nuts..

I was crying at that point ..I was spent from the whole day and disappointed because up until that point ..everything had seemed so easy..

My sweet nurse gave me some more pain meds and benadryl to help me rest and go to sleep..I slept from 11pm-4am ..and that point they removed my catheter and I did some more laps around the floor.

I ended up going pee on my own around 8am ..and that was the best feeling in the world..

Then I had to go down to xray and take a few sips of that yum-o barium and got to watch it pass through my top pouch to my bottom part of my stomach ..which was pretty cool.. he said it looked beautiful and that I could start drinking now.

I've never been so happy to sip crystal light ..and some hot chicken broth.. mm mmm good!

Then my surgeon met up with me when I was in my room and he told me how easy my surgery went and how great my liver was (all that hard work on my pre-op was worth it) ..and that he'll see me in two weeks for a check up..

My little incisions are not painful ..just my abs kind of hurt.. (like to many sit up ..) no gas pain (yet) ..and I'm super happy to be home in my own house..on my own couch..

Thanks again for the support and I'll catch up you all soon..

Here I go..

Just got the call that I've been waiting for all morning ..

I'm going in at 11:30 a.m for a 1:30 p.m surgery..

I actually hoping for a bit of nerves ..so I don't have to feel the hunger pains until 1:30p.m!! :0) Ah..but that seems like no big deal at this point.

My house looks nice and clean .. laundry is done..dishwasher is running right now ..hospital bag is packed and i'm on my way..

I'm going to leave my computer at home ..but I'm going to bring my camera to take lots of pics.. and I'll try to post as soon as I get home on Thursday ..to at least let everyone know that i've made it to the other side..

My hubby is going to fill my pain meds ..my heating pad is ready to be fired up and gas-x is in the bathroom cabinet..

I think I might pick up some more magazines tomorrow and maybe squeeze in a pedi ..you know, to keep my mind of hunger and all ;0) ..so .. see ya bloggy peeps..

I'll introduce you to the newest member of my family Thursday.. ((hugs))

Cleaning and doing wash..

..like a crazy person!

i know my husband is very capable of keeping up with the house and little chores around here..

but i have the urge to get all the wash done and put away.. wash the blankets we keep in the living room (for snuggling while i nap after surgery!).. i've cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom, my sons room ..vacuumed.. my little dude even "helped" me dust today.

feels very much like "nesting" and if your not familiar with that term wiki it! it's what i'm going through today :0)

my mom was super sweet and brought over the soap that i need to wash with before surgery and some magazines to flip through while i'm staying over at the hospital..moms are great!!

thanks to amy w. for letting us post our bloggy link in her blog comments ..and hello new followers.. i'm trying to add you all too..

i can't believe i'm only two sleeps away from surgery..

i'm feeling calm and thankful that i have my peeps out in blog-land to help me afterwards ..with my questions and such ..

more rambling tomorrow i'm sure ..

Rainbows and Frolicking through the flowers..

isn't how anyone described this lapband journey ..and from here on out i'm going to try and remember that and "keep calm and carry on" :0)

thanks to:

-Kristin
-Stephanie
-Carmen
-Jenny
-Gen
-Cindylew
-Debi

for making me feel less craptastic than I did all weekend..

and jenny hit the nail on the head .. about hating everyone that could 'eat' .. that's exactly how I felt this weekend..

..and made me realize that's how I did so well all week ..my husband is at work all day and ate at his mom's house for dinner (taking the boy with him) so I didn't have to worry at all about yummy stuff last sun-through this friday ..

it was just this weekend that I was feeling sorry for myself and filling myself up with self doubt..while everyone ate yummy good looking/smelling food! :0)

i'm back to my shakes today and maybe a lean cuisine tonight ..but I'm not feeling so desperate anymore..

wednesday is almost here!

Questioning myself..

Okay, this isn't going to be a real deep post .. ..but this is mother-freakin hard..

and your saying to yourself "I know.. you wrote that yesterday.." with a roll of the eyes..


I'm just putting my feelings and all things real here.. I don't want to scare anyone that hasn't gone through this..because I really in my heart believe that everyone that goes through the whole band process.. does it a smidgen different from everyone else.

And I'm not even banded yet!

I've heard that this is the hardest part of the journey and I really in my heart believe that (might change my mind after the surgery..but it's what I believe right now) ..

I really thought all along that I would have NO problems at all sticking with the protein shakes 3x a day and breeze through 11 days of the Pre-Op diet..

I even kept holding on to that faith during the first few days after feeling cruddy from the lack of carbs and I thought I had crawled over the carb hump..And I still think I made it past that part ..but the headaches didn't go away and I just felt generally crummy..

I just wanted real food.. nothing crazy.. not the doughnuts at my son's party, or the KFC that my husband brought home for lunch yesterday ..but just something warm and healthy and some-what satisfying.

I know I posted about about struggling with wanting to eat a lean cuisine and you ladies were great with trying to talk me off the ledge of food.. but the lean cuisine won.. (don't hate me!!)

I did a lot of reading on LBT and it seemed like the point of a Pre-Op was to lower your carbs and that's what really helped your liver.. (well, this is what made me feel like I wasn't drowning my pre-op woes in a Big Mac) .. so I had a yummy ..filling..satisfiying lean cuisine ..and my headache went away .. and I just felt "better'" last night.

I think I'll confess to my surgeons office in the a.m .. I don't want to waste anyones time by not telling them and having a fat filled liver ..or something crazy like that..

I'm having one last lean cuisine tonight for dinner and then Monday/Tuesday shakes..Wednesday is the surgery..

This whole thing (the past two days) have been so emotional and upsetting to me.. I was questioning my choice to have the band .. my lack of control over needing food vs. shakes..and could I even do this..

My husband has been great and he's told me a number of times how well I've done and that he wouldn't have lasted one day ;0)

All the planning/thinking about it/waiting and waiting..did not prepare me for feeling so unsure of myself and decisions..

I hope after Wednesday I can put this dreaded 11days behind me and feel like a semi-stronger person..

Thanks again for the love yesterday .. I know nobody else can understand half of what I'm saying other than you peeps..

((hugs))

I would trade my left leg..

for something as silly as a lean cuisine!

could i skip all of my protein shakes and have that?!

i'm dying here peeps! ..dying.. headache from hell during the past two days.. i'm losing it ..

this is hard..

really hard..

i don't want junk or anything bad.. ...but i miss food .. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...





less dramatic posts to resume after wednesday.. i hope..