And then jeans go to..Colleen! :o)

over at 'This Time I Mean It'

http://www.colls-thistimeimeanit.blogspot.com


yay for the sisterHOOD and yay for this bloggy community!!


((hugs))

In the hood ..the SisterHOOD!

who needs a few pairs of jeans in size 18?? anyone??

they aren't all that new or fancy ..but if you need to throw a pair of jeans on in a pinch..these will do!


i went out for drinks on Sunday with a girlfriend (who's inspired by my surgery and now looking into it for herself) and put on that pair of dark jeans.. I ended up wearing them because that's all I have ..but yowwza they were baggy in the butt! i love a bit of room in the waist/thighs ..but i love my booty to be hugged nice and tight!

so now i'm past that size and want to pass on my pieces of clothes to the sister-HOOD..

i'm able to go out to the post office tomorrow ..so give me a shout out if you want these (i know it's not really jean weather in the u.s ..but...maybe your planning ahead for the fall?) :0)

so hi there size 16!! oh heeey 16!! haven't seen you in about five years.. happy i saved 'one' pair of 16's from the skinner days of my life..

i love this tea!!

i don't know what it is about this stuff..but i'm lovin it! and at only a few calories.. it's an easy way to get almost 40oz of "water" in ..i know it's not really "water" but in my book it counts okay? :0)

in other news .. eight more days until fill #2 and i need it ..because..


i'm STARVING!!

and it's driving me nuts! like my stomach is rumbling already and I just had to slices of deli meat with a slice of cheddar cheese..

okay, so lets run down the list of not so good food choices ..

today:

1/2 slice of toast with cinnamon and sugar/butter ..which I made for my son and then he didn't want it .. so on the way to the garbage can it went in my mouth.

a slice of cheddar cheese and salami rolled up..did this twice ..

two cookies

a carnation instant breakfast

wheat-thins ..(at least they were the low-fat kind)


yikes.

must.stay.away from the kitchen!!

yesterday I had two cupcakes with frosting ..and a peanut butter cookie.. left over from a cookout we had at the house on Sunday..


I feel like I was so "good" in the few weeks after the swelling went down from surgery ..and didn't gain ..kept losing .. and not that i've started gaining out of control ..but I'm pushing my luck..



Last week I got 3cc's put in and I'm wondering what she'll suggest for my 2nd fill.. I'm leaving on vacation two days after that.. so I don't want a huge fill ..just incase it's a little much and would need to have some come out..

I'm feeling so ..bleh.. because I was losing (slowly ..but losing..) and I feel like I don't want to let myself down or others around me down.. I know that things will get better after I get to the 'sweet spot' ..but that seems like it's far and out of my reach right now..

Maybe fill #2 will put at least a little dent in the hunger..


Lata bloggy peeps!

This is yumm-o!

Had this the other day for lunch: except my meal was just one enchilada and it came with corn and black beans.. Oh mama was it good! Very soft and band-friendly..so if anyone is in need of a good quick lunch.. Just grab this! Has anyone tried anything else by 'Amy'?

(supplies for my 1st fill)

I was a little bit nervous this a.m .. as I drove out to my appointment I was trying to imagine what this would feel like. I've heard some people like to have the numbing shot and others just take the one injection.. decisions decisions! I opted for the one needle and was pleasantly surprised at how it didn't hurt!?

It felt like the pinch you get when you get your blood drawn .. I think the creepiest feeling was feeling it go through the port ..you could just tell it was going into something hard/plastic..crazy!

She filled my 10cc band with 3cc's and I was able to sit up and drink my little cup of water with no trouble.. I'm on protein shakes for the rest of the day and mushies for the whole day tomorrow.

The best news of the day.. I can go in every 2 weeks for a fill!? I think that's great.. let's get this whole restriction thing figured out asap! ..So my next fill is June 23rd.. right before we leave for a week vacation in Maine..

Went to the gym today (2nd time this week) and did a mile on the elliptical and then another mile on the treadmill .. 2 miles and 300+ calories gone.. plus a little stretching and ab work before I went home..

A very productive Wednesday..

Till later bloggy-peeps!

I'm starting to really like 'me' ..

well, .. i've always liked myself ..

but when i think about it .. could I have really liked myself for the past ten years.. as I watched myself gain the excess weight ..and not really do a whole lot about it.. i'm not sure..

what i do know .. is that i'm in a different place in my life this year and made a choice back in October 2009 to make year #30 my year .. the year i put myself first and thought about the lasting effects of my overall health and how it would eventually catch up to me ..and my little family..

i can't believe that it's been almost 6.5 weeks and i'm almost down 30lbs!? i know that was effort before surgery and 11lbs have been after surgery.. but really? 30lbs?!! if i had never started this whole thing and gone through the surgery.. i know i wouldn't be where i am right this second..

the most i've ever lost 'on my own' was about 20lbs back in high school ..doing weight watchers and then slowly gaining that back +80ish lbs.. yikes.

Recent NSV:

Going swimming at my friends house ..which means getting in a swimsuit in front of others!? and even though I didn't like the walk from the deck to the pool ..i did it..

My Mother-in-law (someone that see's me all the time) ..noticed my change and told me that I looked great! xoxo love her!

Going to a play-date with my little dude yesterday ..with two other moms and kids ..and I wasn't stressing about what to wear (how to hide my fat) to this little outing ..

happy weekend everyone!!

Oh Cigna..I love you!

We are not in the financial spot in our lives that we would be able to come up with 14,000$ for this surgery and for that ..I'm very thankful that I have the insurance that I do .. and that it covered this surgery 99.99% ..

Happy friday bloggy peeps!!

I'm still a loser..

which is a good thing! ..

1.2 lbs

I guess since I'm in the middle of that 'special time of the month' ..my body has decided to not hang on to excess water or anything crazy like that.. and my PMS-type cravings have gone down quite a bit already..

I decided to break out my tape measure the other day and was happy (and surprised) to see -7 inches have been lost on my body since the middle of March..It really should be a rule for all peeps out there in bloggy land to take their measurements before surgery.. it's a great NSV!!

On Tuesday night I went to the monthly support group that my hospital holds ..I went over to where I thought it was being held and then it ended up being a different building ..so I walked down the block with a women that just passed her year anniversary.. I love chatting with people that are farther ahead in this process.. (duh! that's why I blog and read others blogs) ..it's always a learning experience..When we were sitting around in the Post-Op group (after the bigger group meeting with pre/post op's mixed in) ..she said she was struggling with losing the weight and dealing with the compliments/attention and she wasn't sure if she was sabotaging herself to avoid those situations..

And after hearing her talk about that ..and reading other peeps blogs on this type of subject..I wonder how this might effect me ..and the peeps in my life.

I hope that everyone can keep up with growing energy .. I feel like I have this untapped reserve of energy deep underneath all my chub.. and with the 1st 25lbs I've lost.. I can see that it's right under the surface..and can only imagine what I'll feel like after a few more sets of 25lbs come off..

Till later my little bloggy peeps..