I'm starting to really like 'me' ..

well, .. i've always liked myself ..

but when i think about it .. could I have really liked myself for the past ten years.. as I watched myself gain the excess weight ..and not really do a whole lot about it.. i'm not sure..

what i do know .. is that i'm in a different place in my life this year and made a choice back in October 2009 to make year #30 my year .. the year i put myself first and thought about the lasting effects of my overall health and how it would eventually catch up to me ..and my little family..

i can't believe that it's been almost 6.5 weeks and i'm almost down 30lbs!? i know that was effort before surgery and 11lbs have been after surgery.. but really? 30lbs?!! if i had never started this whole thing and gone through the surgery.. i know i wouldn't be where i am right this second..

the most i've ever lost 'on my own' was about 20lbs back in high school ..doing weight watchers and then slowly gaining that back +80ish lbs.. yikes.

Recent NSV:

Going swimming at my friends house ..which means getting in a swimsuit in front of others!? and even though I didn't like the walk from the deck to the pool ..i did it..

My Mother-in-law (someone that see's me all the time) ..noticed my change and told me that I looked great! xoxo love her!

Going to a play-date with my little dude yesterday ..with two other moms and kids ..and I wasn't stressing about what to wear (how to hide my fat) to this little outing ..

happy weekend everyone!!